How Expectant is too Expectant?

I have this key chain that was given to me during the most impactful time period of my life. On it are four principles to living out biblical masculinity, but it is the fourth one that keeps getting my attention every time I grab my keys this past weekend - "Expect God's Reward". I have not been able to shake this notion of expectancy.

This is not a reference to the prosperity gospel that is a very clever lie. It is simply the idea that living life takes risk, takes strategic leaps of faith where one does not have it fully mapped out but simply knows that God is going to move. Why? Because we serve a God who loves to reveal Himself and make Himself known for all to see. He longs for His people to put Him on display so He can bring others to Himself - all through our very, daily lives.

Ever since I began the journey of college I have sought to live out my life in expectant ways. I had no idea what it looked like, but I knew that if God wanted me to do something, told me to do something, it would all work out for His purpose, His plan, His will - the greater Kingdom good. The jumps are scary, yet I have never regretted taking a single one of them. It is in these jumps that I have felt the closest to my God and seen my relationship with Him take me places I did not even know were possible. It is in those times where I have come to a better understanding of precisely just how God wants to make Himself on display in my life. 

CSUF, college ends for me in 32 days. For the past year God has been revealing to me that after I graduate, I get the privilege to pour out my life, my energies, my time, my twenties, in the amazing city of Fullerton. Move there. Live in community. Do life together. Be on mission.

As time is getting closer, that desire is intensifying. And out of nowhere, last weekend a potential door for moving to Fullerton opens up. Only problem is my current job would be just enough to pay for rent (until Summer, then I have to find a full-time job). Yet, there has been a voice, a thought in the back of my head saying "Take the jump. Expect God's reward. Be expectant. Put it all on the line. Let ME be put on display in this."

Is this voice mine? Am I creating this in my anticipation and excitement of moving to Fullerton as I see the light at the end of the tunnel as graduation quickly approaches? Or, is this not my idea? Is this the indoor voice that I'm not used to hearing from Jesus (as He usually needs the outdoor voice and a 2x4...)? Is this a step of faith that I'm being asked to step into?

It leaves me wondering - how expectant is too expectant?